It has been one week

I haven't blogged much in the past week, so I wanted to try and get caught up on my thoughts and what things have been like.

Last Monday I left and went down to Silver Spring, Maryland, where my surgery was going to take place. I got down there in the afternoon and just had time to relax and hang out with my friend.

Tuesday morning was a super early morning. Surgery was scheduled at 7 am which meant I had to be at the surgery center at 6 am. I got up at 5 a.m. and showered with Hibiclens before heading in for surgery. Then I got there and filled out the usual paperwork along with the other preparation work that they do for you when you are about to get cut open.

After going through things with the nurses, the doctor arrived and went over to what they were going to be doing to me. So I had three nerves cut in my pelvis and groin. I will look up the technical terms to all of this later. The surgery lasted a little over two hours.

I woke up from surgery in complete and total pain. Nothing seemed to be taking me down to a manageable level. I was in recovery longer than I was in surgery and I felt absolutely miserable. I was also dreading the getting up to go to the bathroom, because of how bad I hurt. So that was excruciating even with the nurses helping me move.

We did get things calmed down and I was able to leave, I had asked the doctor for crutches which he agreed to, because putting weight on my left leg was just so painful I couldn't do it. The doctor agreed to the crutches to help me get around for the reasons that they would stabilize me and also slow me down.

So going back to my friends Brooke and Mike they took great care of me all week, even though I could hardly get around. I felt pretty helpless. I was taking a lot of pain medication those first few days trying to keep my pain at bay.

On Friday I was able to get a ride home which was a little rough, but I was so glad to be home.

All weekend I spent laying around and sleeping as much as possible. I did have a friend help take me grocery shopping, I am trying to remember that I have to ask for help... and I must use help.

So for now I am icing my abdomen and taking the medications as prescribed by the doctor  and taking it as slow as possible so that I can try and heal.

What I can say is this surgery was painful and my biggest hope is that after the surgery wounds heal, that I will feel like a completely different person.

Making it another week

This week was strange and I am still working to find out whether or not I have a bladder infection, but I am taking the meds that the doctor gave to me and trying to get my rest.

So I noticed yesterday while in the shower that I have some fairly big bruises in odd places in my body. I am pretty sure they are from the Pudendal Nerve blocks that I have been getting. I do get these every two times a week. I guess that is something else to talk to the doctor about again this week.

My goal is to start walking atleast once a day, my body needs to do some type of activity and although it hurts I need to do it.  So I managed to take a 30 minute walk today and of course now I need to go through a lot of stretching to try and make myself feel better.

I have some books that the doctor recommended that I read on the conditions that I have and in all honesty I cannot bring myself to purchase them and begin reading. I had a hard enough time getting through the pamphlets they gave me in the beginning of all of this.

Right now in the back of my mind all I can think of is if I am even going to fully make it through my next event. I couldn't function after a 6 hour trip to Philly. So I guess to some point I need to begin pushing myself a little so that I can see what my body will do.

I am officially in month eleven of this process, of course for most of it I had no diagnosis so I just felt miserable all of the time and wasn't sure why.

The good news I slept a little better the past two days, which was good. Hopefully that continues.

So it is all about trying to figure all of this out, I wish it was easier.